It all started in New Zealand. Matthew and I spent nearly a month there this winter, and when we landed, groggy from 18 hours of flying, one of the first things that greeted us in the airport in Auckland was a rack of brochures extolling the virtues of all the exciting things to do in New Zealand. Kiwis are known for their active, open and friendly natures, and touristy activities reflect that: Whitewater Rafting! Cycling Treks! Skydiving!

"Matthew," I said as I suddenly knew the Next Big Thing on My Path, "I need to go skydiving."

Until recently, I wasn't really one for frequent consultation with my guides. Oh sure, when I needed something, I knew how to ask.  But something held me back.  I thought I should be doing this stuff on my own, and that asking was a sign of weakness somehow.

I even — dare I mention this? — ignored advice from my guides.  Not just once or twice, but A LOT.

I think we all do.

On the Earth plane, in bodies, there's the perception that we're separate.  We can't help that; it's just part of life as we perceive it.  Nothing wrong with that.  So the idea of giving up control to something unseen seems sort of alien to us.  I always used to envy religious people who had a lot of faith, because, I reasoned, at least they believed that there was some higher Something that woud take care of them.  For all my gifts and abilities (and I always have spoken frequently to Polaris, just not so much my guides), I felt alone.

Not any more.

This is day 5 of my fast for Darfur.

It all came about last week when I read about Mia Farrow's fast on Causecast (where I'm a contributing writer). I couldn't let go of the idea, and I kept getting messages that fasting was going to benefit me, so last Saturday I began, still not quite knowing where it was going, yet letting my inner guidance help me to where I needed to be.

It's been an amazing journey.

Every day I've been walking in the forest near my home, spending that quiet hour with my guides, my higher self (essence), and nature, walking and listening.  One of the main things I'm taking from this is a huge validation of something Polaris says: