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This is fourth in a series on expanding the chief features of the Michael Teachings framework. In this channeling, the focus is on Arrogance. Arrogance is built upon the fear of vulnerability. We have defined vulnerability in the past as a "coming forward" with the complete Self: It has nothing to do with allowing another person unrestricted access to your energetic core. Vulnerability is about bringing yourself forward as you are.
In other words, the person with Arrogance is constantly feeling empty inside. Because of this constant feeling of inner emptiness, there is huge fear of being seen and of being found fraudulent. The emptiness will be perceived by others. There is an awareness of the apparent discrepancy between this wall (and image) that is being maintained and the sense of emptiness deep inside the wall. Manifestations of ArroganceThere are, as you can imagine, different ways of manifesting Arrogance. One is more cardinal (outward facing or extroverted) and one is more ordinal (introverted). Cardinal arrogance, or exalted arrogance, will have a constant sense of pushing outward to maintain that wall. A personality construct is thrust outward and an image is maintained strongly. Yet there is still always the knowledge of the inner emptiness and the fear that someone meeting that wall will see the inner emptiness inside — and therefore the cardinally arrogant person will be found fraudulent. The king will be found to have no clothes.
Ordinal arrogance is a little different. There is still the creation and maintenance of a wall, but there is not the constant sense of pushing outward to maintain it. The wall is more like a cloaking shield, giving the illusion of invisibility. The wall is a defense against anyone coming inside — and so the wall is put up hastily, at the last minute, to prevent anyone from coming beyond that point. There is a knowledge of where the wall would exist when a threat is perceived, but it's not a constant outward pressure. Instead, it's hastily erected in order to defend against a perceived threat of someone seeing that empty core that's always perceived as inside the arrogant person. This is the root of shyness. This wall of defense that the ordinally arrogant person uses can take different forms. In shyness, it's a retreat into that sense of emptiness. In this case, the ordinally arrogant person can only see that emptiness and assumes that everyone else can also only see that emptiness. They immerse themselves in the sense of invisibility that they have in being in that emptiness: They feel empty. They sense emptiness. They assume everyone else sees them as empty — and invisible. On the other hand, the cardinally arrogant person is more afraid of being found fraudulent. Ordinal arrogance is for the most part chosen by those already exhibiting more ordinal energy. There is no rule of thumb here, but in general ordinal roles or an overall choice of overleaves are more comfortable with ordinal arrogance. This is not always the case and not always tied to a role; it's an overall energetic choice. Ordinal arrogance is still based on this pervasive sense of emptiness, but rather than it being a "defense by offense", which is the function of cardinal arrogance, it is more "pure defense" When an energetic assault is felt on that outer shell of identity, then the person who uses ordinal arrogance attempts to become invisible. It is a function of stealth rather than a projected image. In these cases with ordinal arrogance the conscious awareness of the emptiness of Self is typically apparent more often than it is with cardinal arrogance. In the latter, the focus is on that outer shell of identity. Thus the person's sense of identity becomes lost in that focus. But the movement outward is always to escape that sense of inner emptiness. With ordinal arrogance the inner emptiness is felt because the persona is in many ways identified with that smallness of invisibility. The Emptiness WithinOften the word "emptiness" is used more to relate to people with Greed, where an emptiness is attempted to be filled with more and more. The inner sense of emptiness in Arrogance, on the other hand, has to do with the Self — a feeling of emptiness about one's own self, it's value, and the identity as such. The emptiness of Greed on the other hand is always seeking outward. Greed is always wanting more and more of some thing, even if that thing is intangible, in order to fill up an inner emptiness. The fear of that emptiness in Arrogance manifests in two specific ways — the cardinal and the ordinal. Rather than a gathering of more and more experiences, things, or relationships as with Greed, with Arrogance there is the creating that wall of a persona (cardinal arrogance) or a focus on creating that wall of invisibility for protection. The feeling of emptiness exists for both: in Greed the perception of emptiness is attempted to be filled, whereas with Arrogance the emptiness is attempted to be denied by blocking access to it. When coupled with Self-Destruction this results in very overt addictive behaviors. How the Wall is Erected: Childhood BeginningsArrogance is created when a child begins to develop unreasonably high expectations for himself. High expectations are often developed when a child feels a sense of competition with others in the family. In other words, there is a constant sense of comparison between the child developing arrogance and other people around them, such as parents or siblings. High expectations of the Self tend to be formed when there are frequent assaults made from another trusted person's third chakra to the child's third chakra. Because there is a desire within the child to maintain a connection to the person who is damaging their third chakra, there is a desire to please. However, because of the nature of power interactions, there can never be any true pleasing of the other, and so the child takes on this dynamic of power and competition and transforms it into setting very high expectations within themselves. This results in people who get straight As, become child prodigies, or throw themselves into anything in particular in order to excel. Interestingly enough, it is from a sense of inner emptiness that the majority of people who excel in one way or another act, and they can never satisfy that sense of inner emptiness because their expectations are always set higher and higher, no matter how good they get at something. Understand that not everyone who has the energy of arrogance is going to be excelling in anything in particular. The sense of competition can sometimes result in competing to be "worst". But even without excelling, the dynamic is still the same: expectations, power struggle, and a sense of inner emptiness. The wall, this image of an identity, is created in part to be as big as the person that they are competing with, in order to be as good as this parent or older sibling. But at the same time, there is a feeling of certainty that they can never be as good as the person that they are competing. It's a lose-lose situation. Relationships Within the Wall of ArroganceIn general, relationships with people in Arrogance can be frustrating if you are of a person who wants to have a very close, intimate relationship that's not also codependent. People with Arrogance want to be close, yet they have an intense fear of letting anyone see who they are. They become accustomed to setting up all kinds of defenses — or self-destructing relationships when they feel that people are becoming too close. In other words, they break up with people in a relationship as they advance on and become more intimate, or they completely shut down emotionally. People in Arrogance tend to take on roles rather easily in a relationship: "The Protector," "The Nurturer" and "The Provider" are some examples. They take on roles and they find it difficult to move out of those roles. They tend to choose partners who help feed the identity roles that they take on within a relationship. They are particularly susceptible to performing the same relationship patterns over and over and over again. They tend to be the ones who have a pattern of serial monogamy, affairs, and have difficulty staying with one person for a long time — unless that person is very content with there being an element of distance or a power imbalance in the relationship. A person in Arrogance is likely not going to be comfortable in a long-term relationship with someone who wants a deep sense of intimacy. People in Arrogance can have very satisfying long-term relationships with other people — as long as those other people are they themselves comfortable with relationships where there is an element of distance. We know of very highly functional, long-term relationships where one member is an arrogance and the other person is not and is happy interacting with that image that's created rather than the person inside. Yet Arrogance also leads to a strong disconnection with the Self. People in Arrogance can be highly functional and highly helpful to others — but they don't necessarily perceive that there is a problem or the nature of their sense of inner emptiness.
The Social RewardsJust as with Martyrdom, there are social rewards to Arrogance in modern Western culture. Western culture admires a sense of being bigger than you already are. It admires the John Wayne swagger. It admires bravado. There is an element to the energy of Arrogance that has that — especially the cardinal arrogance that pushes outward. What is not seen on a social level is that fear of being found fraudulent. Because of this fear of being found out to be empty inside, the Arrogant person is pushing out even more, daring himself to do greater things and be ever bigger. Ironically it's the most cardinally Arrogant person who is most in denial of the Self on an inner basis. It creates a lack of self awareness. Within this irony, it's often the very cardinally Arrogant who lead self-help workshops. These people can be very much in denial of themselves, because they fully believe themselves to be the image that they have created. They can walk in that image, put a lot of energy into that image — or "I'm a guru and I'm helping you" — without ever attending to that sense of inner emptiness. The admiring energy from students reinforces the pattern of Arrogance and creates even more fear of others seeing the inner emptiness. Perceptions — and perceptions of students in that area — are therefore unconsciously repressed until there is little awareness of the nature of the Self. You can see this dynamic in the interaction with Esther Hicks and the channeling of Abraham. Esther uses a commanding big presence, and if anyone tries to come up against that image and the energetic wall built around it, she will immediately expand her energy (together with that of Abraham) quickly and violently to cause the other person to back off. This happens during channeling sessions of Abraham — If anyone were to question Abraham in a way that triggers doubts or engages a sense of inner emptiness, then he violently pushes his energy outwards and causes the other person to back off. This is the classic description of a "power game".
Question: What's the difference between helping and leading others from within Arrogance and helping others as you are? Because the idea of being bigger than you are is rewarded in modern Western culture, many people are attracted to "larger than life" personalities. Thus there is a magnetizing effect for the teachers who have exalted Arrogance. The things that they could be saying may have great Truths to them. It's not as if their Arrogance is negating the truth of what they are teaching. The energy of Arrogance does have a magnetizing effect and allows others to see them as "larger than life" which fits in with their ideas of how the world should work and that they should be "on high". This in turn feeds the energy of Arrogance by having an adoring crowd of people who are very willing to buy into that larger than life image. It's a self-perpetuating cycle. How does this differ from a teaching that is not centered around someone with Arrogance? It will attract different people. When you need to look outside yourself to find Truths — when you don't trust your own inner guidance — then you will be looking to someone who has a larger than life energy, which includes teachers with arrogance. There thus tends to be a pairing of Arrogance with other chief features which disconnect you from that sense of inner guidance. This channeling was split into two parts. Please now go on to Part 2: Healing Arrogance and Letting Go, which deals with various methods of letting go of the associated fears and learning to truly be one's Self. |
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Arrogance: The Fear of Vulnerability
Oct 29 2009 22:39:46 This thread discusses the Content article: Arrogance: The Fear of Vulnerability
OMG, Karen, each article in this series just gets better and better. Polaris gives such a CLEAR picture of how the energy moves. I love it. I'm definitely doing ordinal arrogance for the most part, though I can see some cardinal manifestation in there too (e.g. I tend to only go "public" with my successes and rarely ever let anyone but a small circle of friends see my weaknesses/failures/disappointments). I got an up close look at how my defenses go up while I had the flu last week. I had to ask my landlord to come in and unclog my bathtub drain a second time, and I was trying to formulate a reason that wouldn't make it look like it was a mistake I made. Because I already had low energy, the energy used up in defense was A LOT more noticeable. When I noticed the defense, I thought, "Screw it. This is too much work!" So I decided to drop the defense and just tell the landlord exactly what happened. Similar situations happened a few more times, but only in my head. Some random thought about what somebody said or did would come up, and I'd catch my defensiveness start to go up because of how taxing it was. Then I'd consciously drop the defense and let the "assault" come through, but nothing actually did. There was nothing to defend and nothing to defend from. The process I experience is exactly how Polaris described ordinal arrogance - a wall goes up when I perceive an individual threat, another goes up when I perceive another one, etc. I'm not sure about the feeling of emptiness thought. Not that it doesn't make sense, but I haven't sensed a feeling of emptiness at the basis of my Arrogance (but I could just be too used to it). I get an unreasonable fear of people's reactions to my mistakes/weaknesses, as if they wouldn't like me or would punish me for them. I can see the fear that comes up but at the moment I'm not sure what is behind that fear. I haven't listened to the visualization yet, but those group exercises sound like they would help! I wish I had someone to do them with. |
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Oct 30 2009 05:32:48 Thanks Karen. Illuminating. Letting it digest.
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Oct 30 2009 16:59:53 Thank you!
I think there's a lot of confusion between ordinal Arrogance and Self-Depreciation. I think there's plenty of people online who claim they have Self-Dep and have Arrogance - just not the super exalted kind. I actually don't have a lot of either Self Dep or Arrogance. My main one is Impatience, with some Greed and Martyrdom. Though as we go through these, it's easy enough to see that we have all chief features. That's the benefit of describing the inward function. As I've looked through descriptions online and in Jose Stephen's books, it's easy to get the stereotype and then say "oh no, I don't have this". Whereas to me it's more constructive to have a description of the inner process so I can say "yes, I have some of this even though it's not my primary". In any case, it's likely Karen who can say how big my Arrogance is rather than me. You know how chief features are - it's the hardest thing to be self aware of. Regarding emptiness, I find that's the hardest thing to be aware of. I think that emptiness - or sense that we are lacking, flawed, or not perfect - is there in different forms in all the chief features. Sometimes I get frustrated in meditation because after meditating and simply letting go for a while, I think I "should" be feeling better. Whereas I'm honestly feeling worse: despair and emptiness. I suppose that's a "good" thing, but of course it doesn't seem like that to me at the time. Most of our models for self-improvement are an image. So there's disappointment when we do something and don't get closer to that image. I think there's also information about what matches with Arrogance as well. In other words, what energies buy into the image. Certainly both ordinal arrogance and martyrdom buy into cardinal arrogance, in that both "get" something by believing in that image, thereby becoming smaller or invisible with the hope of getting something later. I've noticed that in myself. Let us know what you think of the visualization! |
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Oct 30 2009 23:44:07 For those not following celebrity gossip, David Letterman recently confessed on his show to having sex with female staffers after an alleged extortion plot threatenng to reveal more details of his untold life. He says he contacted the disrict attorney and gave a bogus check to the so-called extortionist for 2 million dollars in a sting operation. All of this in the news or his show. At one point he expressed concern about the hurt his wife must have felt.
For someone with a chief feature of arrogance I think he should have been grateful for the opportunity to open up and paid the two million and called it even. AS someone who has been vulnerability challenged I can recall seeing criminals who were caught confessing their crimes and thinking how lucky they were to do so. At one time I was in a group (scientology) that encouraged confessing one's transgressions. I was hoping I could do so, so thoroughly and completely that I'd never have to do so again. Hadn't realized that the grace is in being willing to be vulnerable not getting rid of the possiblity. I enjoyed the descriptions of Esther Hicks and Dr. Wayne Dyer. Many more in the teacher/guru mode are dealing with arrogance. |
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Oct 31 2009 05:57:05 lovingawareness wrote:
Certainly both ordinal arrogance and martyrdom buy into cardinal arrogance, in that both "get" something by believing in that image, thereby becoming smaller or invisible with the hope of getting something later. What do you mean by "buy into the image"? Do you mean that in relation to other people (they're drawn to people with cardinal arrogance) or that they feed cardinal arrogance in themselves? Oh, you know who's a great caricature of cardinal arrogance? The Wizard of Oz. RE: Social Rewards When Polaris started discussing social rewards for arrogance, I was waiting for them to go into some things that I see are really common in American culture, but they didn't. For instance, here it's virtually required that we puff ourselves up in resumes, job interviews, etc. Otherwise people think you have no confidence. |
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Oct 31 2009 14:28:46 Diane says:
What do you mean by "buy into the image"? [of Arrogance] Do you mean that in relation to other people (they're drawn to people with cardinal arrogance) or that they feed cardinal arrogance in themselves? Matthew Says: Both. By buying I mean emotionally investing in it. Buying stocks in the outcome, so to speak. You fully believe the image that is presented and push away perceptions that there's something under that. It doesn't have to be cardinal arrogance per se. You can invest in anyone's chief feature. My experience has told me that part of the "rush" in discovering someone romantically is the energy of these investments which are agreements of sorts. You're right Diane about not fully listing rewards for Arrogance. There's many professions it's almost a necessity. Any profession in which there's sort of a myth that they can do no wrong is covered in Arrogance. One interesting exercise is to name people (famous people or just online) we think have the chief feature. Certainly I see Obama in Arrogance, with some other influences. Even someone like Eckhart Tolle I see as having some Arrogance, but not the exalted kind. I say this in part because naming people that we know really checks in with us if we really believe that everyone has chief features, no chief features are better than others, and that it is not better to *not* have a chief feature. What's our reaction saying that a friend has Arrogance? Would it feel better to say Self-Dep? Or that it's mild? That reaction is our own buying into something. I recognize there can be a reaction - I remember having a spat when I recognized a chief feature clearly once - but to me it's about as neutral as saying someone's INFP or she can't dance West Coast Swing. Redwood99 wrote: At one time I was in a group (scientology) that encouraged confessing one's transgressions. I was hoping I could do so, so thoroughly and completely that I'd never have to do so again. Hadn't realized that the grace is in being willing to be vulnerable not getting rid of the possiblity.. Matthew: Thank you for joining us! That's an impulse I'm all too familiar with. Doing something that sounds wonderful - like vulnerability, confession, forgiveness, patience - but really having it about getting rid of something. I see it in everyone around me - but I suppose I'm learning to laugh at it. It's wonderfully human, especially when we see not just the big things but how it happens in every single moment. That's where the humor is. Being a sage who doesn't like hiding anything [Karen gives me TMI abort signals at least once a day] I can't say I've had huge relief feelings at confessing something. At the same time, it does feel a lot better not to have any constraints about what to show to society or people you trust. When there's shame about something, you hide it. I think confession can be overemphasized and combined with society's desire to have a scapegoat and someone to direct anger and fear at. In non-supportive environments, confessing is combination of a "it's great that you confess" and "let me lay on the guilt now". Even confessing Catholic priests can be like that. This would match with the pattern of the chief feature to "prove" that if they *are* vulnerable, it's going to be awful. People combining Self-Destruction and Arrogance can create patterns demonstrating that over and over again. However, I think that confessing to someone who sees you as absolutely perfect the way you are - as you are in your completeness - is transformative. Thank you all! |
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Oct 31 2009 16:25:42 I used to joke that I had the superpower of invisibility because I truly believed (or wished) myself invisible. The irony was that at the same time, I deeply longed to be truly "seen," but was deathly afraid of being seen if that meant having to uncloak all the things about myself that I didn't like or was uncomfortable with.
Letting go of the energy it takes to maintain that wall of invisibility has been a huge relief and has meant I can use my energy for other things. I still catch myself trying to hide from time to time, but I also found that it's a lot more fun being vulnerable and not trying to manage everyone else's reaction to me or my energy. Screw it, indeed. |
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Nov 02 2009 17:33:25 I have been working on the idea and the actual doing of "surrender" to ameliorate arrogance. I look at a tree leaf and say something like this: Does not the tree want the leaf to be safe and succeed in all its potential (for it's good for the tree). Then doesn't God want me to be safe and succeed as well. Then I surrender myself to the TAO, for I'm safe in it, and have no fear. I'm finding that to surrender is working well to ameliorate my CF.
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Nov 02 2009 17:41:48 describens@yahoo.com wrote:
I have been working on the idea and the actual doing of "surrender" to ameliorate arrogance. I look at a tree leaf and say something like this: Does not the tree want the leaf to be safe and succeed in all its potential (for it's good for the tree). Then doesn't God want me to be safe and succeed as well. Then I surrender myself to the TAO, for I'm safe in it, and have no fear. I'm finding that to surrender is working well to ameliorate my CF. This is a prime example of why it's wonderful to hear a priest's side of things too. Thank you! Sometimes I focus way too much on the insight and need to remind myself to relax, let go, and surrender. |
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Dec 13 2009 04:44:31 This article has a glaring error...I'm no fan of Wayne Dyer, but I am familiar with his story and he does not claim he had a heart-centered childhood. In fact, he claims the opposite:
www.fosterclub.com/famous/dr-wayne-dyer |
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In Arrogance, there is a constant sense of defense against vulnerability. Walls are erected around the Self, often in the form of an image given to others, and much attention and focus is given to the creation and maintenance of this wall. However, when such attention and focus is given to a space outside the Self — unless what is inside is just as full and complete as what is within — then there will always be a pervasive sense of emptiness.




